I just feel so fed up and tired about things happening recently. It's all happening at the wrong time, seriously.

Everyday, in school, didnt pay much attention in class. Homeworks all not completed yet. Ive no interest in any subjects, I can't concentrate. My mind has been running everywhere. I felt tired during lessons, I have no mood to study. I just can't stop thinking. I swear this term gonna sucks more than any others! Seriously, this shouldn't be happening, or I should say, it can't happen. Ive no idea how am I gonna take O's in 4 months time. Am I really going to flunk everything? Seriously, I hate everything now.. It just sucks like nobody's business.

I felt bad towards you. But actually, to speak the truth, I hate you for saying this. "Each time we quarrelled, I always have to be the one apologising to you.." Perhaps, yes, sometimes I do get angry. But it's not always, so please don't assume. Sometimes, because I took a longer time to reply you, you would think Im being angry with you. I promised you, I will be back for you when Im alright. I hope I can honour my words, because the feeling of heartbroken really sucks.

Sometimes, it's really hard to be happy. Yes, I can be happy for awhile, but I start to change very soon. I really hope I can be like before, but I know it's kind of difficult. I hope I can end my secondary school life quickly, so that I can end my misery quickly. I always tried to control myself, but I failed to do so.

Shit all this. I hope I can just die right now -.-

But Ive got to be glad that Ive got a good sister. Yes, we do quarrel, over tiny little things. But she never fail to be there for me whenever Im down. Even thou I kept complaining about her, but she is always one that I will love still ♥ And friends, for the care and concern. Sorry that Ive failed you guys, and I think I can't do it within a month.


yeeshuting, please come back..